It’s one of those topics that most couples don’t really discuss or announce. Once you make that decision to take the leap, it sort of remains a secret between you two until you have something real to tell. That was our thinking, anyway. And then month after month would go by. So here we are, a year later and with nothing to tell.
We have always known that we would like to have a big family. When we reached the point of being “ready,” we were excited, anxious and scared all at once. So we began trying to have a baby with high hopes. We had a little bet going – Jason thought I would be pregnant within three months and I thought it would take longer. Usually I am always happy to be right, but not so much in this situation.
I have read that infertility is defined as the failure to conceive after one year of trying. Two of the scariest words wrapped up in one definition. Infertility and failure. Sheesh…way to cut straight to the heart. I have to say also that I don't totally agree with that definition. I have not been to see my doctor yet, so our situation has not been officially labeled anything. We feel it’s too soon to jump to any conclusions. I try not to worry or think about it too often, but those of you who have been in my place know that is almost an impossible task.
We pray everyday for God’s blessings and still have strong faith that we have great things to come. We know He has wonderful plans for our future. Sometimes the waiting is just so hard though, but we will do our best to be patient and remain faithful. We are still so excited for what the future holds.